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Faith and Dealing with Doubts

Why are you troubled, and why do doubts arise in your hearts? Luke 24:38 ESV.

Doubts: a feeling of uncertainty or lack of conviction. Have you ever faced a sneak attack, from the enemy, of doubt? I faced such an assault last week.

This is a very transparent story I am sharing with you. A couple of weeks ago, I felt the Holy Spirit nudging me to write a letter. It wasn’t an easy letter to write, so I sought Him for the wording. The day I wrote the letter, I actually woke up with, what I felt was His wording for the letter. This came with such peace, that I knew I had heard from Him on the matter.

All went well for the next few days. Then, one night as I was falling asleep, a very subtle feeling of unease crept in. I dismissed it, and went on with my life. But slowly but surely the unease led to insecurity which led to condemnation. The condemnation became so strong that I began to doubt anything and everything else I was doing. Along with the doubt, insecurity came fear.

The “feeling” was awful. I went back to the Lord, apologizing and repenting if I had misunderstood His assignment. I asked Him to be merciful and gracious to the person I wrote to. Finally, I shared the letter with someone. She knew the person I wrote to. She said, “it’s a good letter”. That helped.

As I went back to the Lord, I heard Him whisper: “doubt”. No wonder I was struggling. Doubt is an insidious tool. It subtly caused me to turn my eyes away from the Lord. Focusing on myself is never a good thing. I truly was like James 1:6 says, but let him ask in faith, or the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. My emotions had me all over the place.

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When the Holy Spirit whispered the word “doubt”, peace came and it was like a light turned on! I knew I was the victim of a sneak attack by the enemy. What began with the letter, tried to spread to every ministry area in my life. It tried to undermine my calling and my purpose. Doubt and insecurity attempted to steal my confidence in the Lord. They wanted me to focus on myself. This shift in focus distracted me from God’s ability.

My friends, I felt confident that the letter I wrote, written in love, was an act of obedience. Only God knows what the outcome will be. Part of the letter challenged the works of darkness. I knew of the possible backlash, but was still unprepared for how it came. My friends, obedience isn’t always easy. We do have an enemy that does not fight fair. He seeks any entry he can find. He found an area of weakness in my life. I am so grateful for the Holy Spirit and His words of life and truth. The peace of God came immediately.

In Mark 9, we find the story of a father bringing his son to Jesus for help. His father asked “if you can do anything, have compassion on us and help us. And Jesus said to him, “if you can! All things are possible for one who believes. Immediately, the father of the child cried out and said, “I believe; help my unbelief!”. (Mark 9: 22-24. ESV.) The Lord has gone on to show me, what I started in faith, I needed to continue in faith. Praying and believing the words I wrote, spoken in faith and love, would produce the good fruit God intended. When doubt entered in, I stopped praying for the situation. It began to be about me. I’ve gone back to praying in faith, that He is moving. I’m praying the truth will set free and God’s will, will be done.

We must continue to grow in our faith. Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the word of God. Romans 10:17. My friends, don’t let doubt and unbelief hinder you from obedience. It is not worth it.

Father, I thank you for your victory. I am humbled by your gracious Holy Spirit who speaks words of life to us. Please teach us how to resist doubt and unbelief by learning Your Word and Your Ways.

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Faith and Saying Goodbye

Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his saints. Psalm 116:15. ESV.

About sixty years my mom received a phone call. Of course, we only had landline phones, so she was tethered to the spot. She shooed us away into another room and shut the door. Being 15, we knew something was up. This was not my mom’s normal behavior. After a while, she emerged tight-lipped and very quiet. Of course, as normal teenagers, my sisters and I (remember we are triplets) began to pester her. What’s going on?

Later that day, after talking with our dad,she shared some news. Turns out the person on the phone was our sister’s mom. Yes, our sister! It was the beginning of a swirling whirlwind of emotions, questions, and thoughts. We learned that day that we had a sister named Laura! Laura was getting married and we were invited to the wedding! My mom and dad discussed this invitation and, with some fear and concern, took us to the wedding. There is a whole other God back story to how/when they discovered where we were.

The wedding venue was about four hours away from our home. I remember being excited and anxious at the same time! Besides Laura and her family, we got to meet our brother, Larry and his family, plus our sister Carol and her family. We learned that with our birth, there were eight children! Besides these, we had our oldest sister Betty and a sister Alice!

At the time of our meeting, Carol was married with two young girls. They lived in a farmhouse, with an orchard to care for. Her husband Pat was a teacher (as was Carol). Carol actually wanted to get to know us! Apparently, she had told everyone she had triplet sisters and knew she would meet them someday. They invited us to come and stay with them for a weekend off and on. Slowly, we learned about our biological family and make memories together.

I have discovered in life, there are people who seem to be “gluers”, and people who are “gluees”. What I mean about that is there are folks who work hard keeping people together. It can be with family or friends. Carol was a “gluer”. Obviously, it was a momentous occasion for all of us. Particularly for our sister Carol. At eleven, Carol was the oldest child at our birth home. She had the task to calling for the doctor. Because our dad was a mining assessor, they lived in one of the cabins made available to the workers. It only had two rooms. The doctor came by seaplane. Talking with her about this event always brought emotions to each of us. When our family left Texas, Betty stayed behind. I think that hole was difficult for all the siblings, but especially Carol. I think that experience helped her become the “gluer” she was. Then, rightly understanding, our parents could not raise triplets in that environment, the doctor began the termination of parental rights. Carol and Laura went into foster care.

Carol did not let the wedding event be a “one and done” meeting. I know she talked with my mother. She planned for us to take the train to visit her and her family. Over the years, she truly became our “big sister”. She pursued a relationship with us. 

Part of the adoption process is not necessarily having someone around who has the same DNA. Despite not being raised together, we were remarkably alike! It gave validation and a foundation that we didn’t even know we needed.

She passed away May 17, 2025 at 86. Our last visit took place in a hospital room. She did not seem to really comprehend who we were. Parkinson’s was taking its toll. I sat on the side of her bed, thanking her for touching so many lives so well. She said my name, and I knew she knew who I was. My friends, each of us can touch lives. To bring value to those around us, if we simply choose to see them. Carol did that her whole life. It was hard to say goodbye that day.

I look back at our remarkable story. Our “big sister” Carol was the epitome of compassion, caring, and a great example of a good listener. Her persistence in developing a real sister relationship between strangers was amazing. God sent her into our lives when we were three insecure teenagers, and it changed us. Through Carol, we also came to know Laura, Larry, and our sister Betty. Unfortunately, although I “met” Alice, distance and life circumstances did not give us the same opportunity.

We hosted a family gathering, May 23, to help celebrate her life. Over thirty people came, including Larry, Laura, Mary and Marie. We missed our sister Betty, who, at 95, stayed in Texas. How do we say goodbye to her? We don’t because we know we will see her again, as Carol is a believer in Jesus Christ.

I know this is a personal story, and I thank you for taking the time to read it. I pray that you will know your value to Him. You are also valuable to others. Use that value to help others. Carol and Laura went into foster care after our birth. It was not good or easy, but they were survivors. Those challenges help create some amazing people. God is using your story for your good and the good of others, keep walking!

Father, I thank you for our remarkable story. You took so many hard parts and have woven them together in some amazing ways, and for that I am grateful. You see each one of us, and understand just how you want to help bring glory to Your name, no matter how messy. Thank you, in Jesus’ Name, amen.

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Faith and A God Story

He will rescue the poor when they cry to him, he will help the oppressed, who have no one to defend them. Psalm 72:12

A Fresh Personal Testimony from Sunday, May 18, 2025. This is why I love and serve our Savior.

My friends, we have an amazing God who shows up when we need him. Last week, I mentioned my sister was in hospice care. She passed away on Saturday, May 17, 2025. After I received the text from my niece with this sad news, I started calling our remaining siblings. Losing a loved one is hard. Calling and sharing the news is draining, but also good. There were 8 of us in our biological family. One sister passed a few years ago. Now our precious Carol is gone. Sharing the news that she was with Jesus was expected, but still hard.

That day also held a Senior Life Ministry event that needed my leadership and presence. Our Senior Life planning team was so understanding and helped fill in some of my less than stellar thinking! But by the evening, I admittedly was drained and tired. Grateful for my Alexa app, I asked it to play some worship music while I tried to unwind. The worship tracks Alexa picked were just what I needed. I could feel my body try to unwind.

My alarm went off at 6:00 a.m. for my Sunday morning routine. I felt “off” and admitted I didn’t really feel like going. But after so many years of the discipline of church attendance, I knew I would go. However, I wanted my ‘inside’ heart to want to go too. It’s my habit, while getting ready for church, to listen to Living Word Fellowship, Voluntown, Ct service. Darryl and I were a part of that church family and they still support Impart Ministries. Pastor Kevin has been preaching about the Holy Spirit since the first of the year. He has laid a wonderful foundation for Him. The message this week was based on John 14.

Friends, have you ever simply pushed through doing what is “right”? But not had your heart into it? Me, too. But this time, I felt convicted. Instead of doing the “right” thing without the Spirit’s help, I asked for His help. Pastor Kevin talked about how precious this gift Jesus sent to us was. How He asked His Father to send Him, and I had a fresh revelation of His value. I knew I did not want to waste it. The Amplified Bible makes it clear how valuable the Holy Spirit is. And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Helper (Comforter, Advocate, Intercessor–Counselor, Strengthener, Standby), to be with you forever. John 14: 16. AMP.

I thought about other gifts I have been given. Some appreciated, and others not so much. When we were twelve, my parents bought us big and beautiful dolls for Christmas. I looked at her and was so disappointed. A doll? At 12? I can tell you I was not feeling very appreciative. The funny thing is my mother kept her and one of my granddaughters has her! As I meditated on the incredible gift Jesus asked the Father to send us, I teared up. This message was so timely to me. I am not sure if I can truly write the right words to convey how personal God’s presence became. I just knew God had not only heard my heart cry, but gave me even added revelation.

My friends, I know it was the Holy Spirit who drew me to lean into Him that day. I did not lean away, as I so easily could have. He (the Holy Spirit) is so much more than we comprehend. He is definitely more than that doll I so despised. What good is it to have a Helper we never lean on? A gift we never appropriate? If I asked the Comforter to help my sister Carol’s family, including my siblings, do I trust in Him to show up as a Comforter? Do I believe He will fulfill His purpose?

Just reading those job titles in John 14:16 is mind-blowing. Do you believe He wants to be your Intercessor? Your Strengthener? I surely do. But Jesus did not stop with this. He is also the Spirit of Truth (vs 17). The Spirit of Truth, whom the world cannot receive because it does not see Him or know Him, but you know Him because He (the Holy Spirit) remains with you continually and will be in you. John 14:17. AMP. One of my mentors described the Holy Spirit as a perfect gentlemen. He will not barge in where He isn’t wanted. I am sure He remains with us, but unless we acknowledge Him, we may not even be aware of Him. I want to remind us all, if we call on Him and He is there.

I will not leave you as orphans [comfortless, bereaved, and helpless]; I will come back to you. John 14:18. AMP. That morning, the Holy Spirit came to me in my grief and allowed me to feel His loving care. I was not an orphan, comfortless, bereaved, and helpless. I could feel strength and purpose returning to my soul. It was such a special moment. I could serve my duties with joy, love, and care. Let’s not leave our gift on the shelf, getting dusty and old. Verse 23 in John 14 says: If anyone loves Me, he will keep my word (teaching) and My Father will love him, and We will come to him and make our dwelling place with him. Now that is humbling and amazing. I wonder how often we settle for less than we could, simply because we are too independent and maybe even stubborn.

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Father, I thank you for helping us understand how to really lean on the Holy Spirit in every aspect He is to us. When we comprehend what a difference we have when we access Him as teacher, as Comforter or Friend our lives will change for the better. You truly will be glorified through our lives. In Jesus’ Name, amen.

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Faith and Lessons on Trust

Oh Lord, I give my life to you. I trust in you, my God! Psalm 25: 1 NLT.

This short verse opens Psalm 25. I find myself increasingly drawn to this simple but profound prayer. This week, our family has dealt with life’s troubles.

My older sister Carol is getting ready to transition to heaven. This was not unexpected, but it is still difficult. She lives four hours away. I struggled to decide if I should drop everything and go be with her and her daughter. So I prayed this prayer, Lord, I trust you. When I talked with my niece, I realized it was best for me to stay here. They have hospice care, and that seems to be all they need right now.

My granddaughter just got her driver’s license last week. Tuesday afternoon, she was driving with her mother. A man pulling a trailer got distracted. He plowed into their car. The car is now being evaluated to see if it is worth fixing. The other driver took full responsibility for the accident. The good news, no one went to the ER. We are grateful. It was frightening to hear about. Yet, it was another chance to say: thank you Lord for keeping them safe and I continue to trust you.

This morning my son-in-law fell. The pain was so intense he passed out. Now, they are running many tests to see if there was any internal damage done to any of his organs. Amid all these tests, I am declaring, “Lord, I trust you”. I trust you to show the doctors any critical issue. I trust you to meet their needs. Keep fear far from them. Just hear:d. No fractures seen. CT scan looks great. Use of ibuprofen/tylenol alternating for pain along with lidocaine patches. Monitoring his heart for twenty-four hours and a breathing tool to prevent pneumonia. Declaring my trust in Him helps me release my faith during stressful times. It also helps me capture wild and wayward thoughts that would lead to fear, and all those “what if” scenarios!

My sister’s end-of-life situation is part of living in this world. So many wonderful memories and the fact she knows the Lord makes a hard thing a little easier. The car accident was shocking and unexpected. By the time I received the call, there were people on the scene helping. The other driver took many opportunities to reassure my granddaughter it was not her fault. Each of these things help build trust in Him even more.

Psalm 25:4 reveals another of David’s prayers that I use. Show me the right path, O Lord; point out the road for me to follow. Lead me by your truth and teach me, for you are the God who saves me. My friends, if we surrender to His will, He will lead us. If you are seeking His will for direction, you must determine beforehand to follow whichever road He shows you! Settle in your heart that no matter what it looks like, His road is best. Remember along that path, you will encounter truth and you will learn some lessons. Some of these lessons may be for you, or they may be to help others.

There is another aspect we need in this area of trust. We find it in verse 6. Praise the Lord! Praising the Lord in stressful times acknowledges Him again. Praising Him unlocks even more trust in Him. For he heard my cry for mercy. David declares: The Lord is my strength and shield. No matter how weak and out of control we may feel, God hasn’t changed. He is still stronger than our adversary. His shield is protecting us. We are not alone in our troubles unless we want to be. I am trying to grow in my trust, like David declares in the rest of this verse. I trust him with all my heart. This is a process. A few nights ago, my friend was facing a difficult situation. I began praying for her. My heart was broken for her. I declared through song: My Lord knows the way through the wilderness, all I have to do is follow. Strength for today is mine all the way, and all I need for tomorrow. My Lord knows the way through the wilderness, all I have to do is follow. I may have sung it with tears, but singing it released my faith. I added her name in the song, declaring the Lord knows her way through her own wilderness and I ended up sleeping peacefully.

The rest of this Psalm has good trust statements as well. I encourage you to read it. God’s Word is often like a reset to me. We can never go wrong trusting it!

Father, I thank you for teaching us to trust you. We declare with your son David, O Lord, I give my life to you, I trust in you, my God. You are so trustworthy. Forgive us when we lean unto our own understanding and decide to walk our own paths. I am so grateful you know how to “show the proper path to those who go astray (verse 9). Help us Lord, In Jesus’ Name amen.

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Faith and Teachableness

Instruct the wise, and they will be even wiser, teach the righteous, and they will learn even more. Proverbs 9:9 NLT.

I wonder how you and I would rank on a “teachableness” scale? Would you consider yourself very teachable? Somewhat teachable? Or lousy at it? Jesus taught with parables. Some understood them, some didn’t have a clue what he was talking about, even His own disciples! They are excellent role models for us. Because they didn’t just go on with their day, nodding, “oh yes, wise sayings”. In Luke 8, Jesus told the parable of the farmer scattering seed. They did not understand, so “his disciples asked him what his parable meant”. Luke 8:9. My friends, we need to ask about things we don’t understand. 

But we must first acknowledge what we don’t know. There are some things in my life I don’t know how to do. Sometimes, I just don’t want to bother with them. Last week, after our Life Group was over, someone noticed a leg on my chair was loose. She picked it up, did something, and tightened it. I didn’t want to admit; I didn’t know how to do it. Usually, I wait till my son comes over, discovers the wobble and fixes it. I never watched him do it or ask how to do it. I just lived with it. However, this week I told myself, it can’t be that hard. I found an Allen wrench, experimented and finally got it to work! Are there areas in your knowledge about God that you have never asked Him to teach you about?

God gave us the Holy Spirit to be our teacher. He wants to instruct us and teach us in God’s ways. Come unto me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light. Matthew 11:28-30.  I wonder if the reason so many of us grow weary is that we don’t know Him well enough. We are walking in our own strength and wisdom, and doing things harder than need be. We focus on the problem more than on God and His ability to solve it. He wants to teach us better ways to do things, if we only ask.

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If we want to be teachable, we must quiet our own thoughts and ideas. Then we must put on our listening ears. Many of us find this hard to do amid our noisy world. I’m trying to remember to pray before I open my Bible every day. “Father, teach me. Help me understand what I am reading”. I don’t want to read simply for information, I want to read for application. Sometimes this is hard, because it means I have to change. Being teachable means you will change your approach, your thoughts, your attitudes, or your actions. But we don’t have to make these changes by sheer willpower. We have the Holy Spirit’s help!

Praying with King David, in Psalm 25: make me t know your ways, O Lord, teach me your paths. Lead me in your truth and teach me, for you are the God of my salvation; for you I wait all the day long. Psalm 25: 4-5. ESV. The more we seek Him and His ways, the more comfortable we are with His paths. A person with a teachable spirit is correctable. They do not need to be defensive. They are soft and tenderhearted toward the things of the Lord. They will admit they are wrong. 

Years ago I was talking with a friend about the scripture about putting new wine in old wineskins. I was sharing my “wisdom” as a young pastor. My friend offered a very insightful comment, and, to be honest, I was embarrassed by my lack of insight. I was dishonest, and said, “Oh, yes I knew that’. Unfortunately, that lie lost me the insight and wisdom she shared. I had to repent and admit my pride stood in the way of my learning something. I ranked very low on the teachable scale that day. Don’t let that happen to you. Let’s be learners, no matter who the teacher might be.

Father, please forgive our pride. Help us humble ourselves and seek to learn from you. Thank you for your willingness to teach us, even if we resist it. Your ways are higher than our ways, once we learn that it is so much easier to do things your ways. In Jesus’ Name, amen/ 

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Faith and The Church

God’s purpose in all this was to use the church to display his wisdom in its rich variety to all unseen rulers and authorities in the heavenly places. Ephesians 3: 10 NLT.

Have you ever felt two opposite emotions at the same time? This past Easter, over 100 people raised their hands to receive Jesus as their Lord and Savior. It was so exciting to hear. The next week, we baptized about 30 people! It was exciting to catch their enthusiasm. God is on the move! So I experienced the joy and excitement with our church, and more importantly, The Church. But these new converts are going to need milk and nurturing in God’s ways. They need this if they are to grow up like He desires. I want them to fall in love with Jesus, but also His church.

So my question to all of us is, do you love the church? He does. Do you respect God’s heart toward His church? Is it easy for you to criticize it? But my friends, it is easy to forget the church comprises people.Those people are you and I!  If we as “mature” believers do not model love for God’s house, then how are they to learn to?

Maybe you are struggling to love your specific local church. If something has offended you, do not let it fester. Do you not see how the enemy is trying to separate you? If not physically, then emotionally? Forgive where you need to forgive. Get clarification where you need clarification. Remember, every church is made up of imperfect humans. We often expect the perfection of others and want grace and mercy for ourselves. What type of church would the church be if everyone was like you? Now we know we aren’t all the same and that can create problems. But He has made us a body with separate parts and functions. So learn to be grateful for those with different gifts than you have.

Hebrews 10:24-25: And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near. Here is another question to consider. How can you stir one another to love and good works? You can’t do this if you are not with one another. Satan wants us to focus on ourselves, so we think “It won’t matter if I go today”. The thing he won’t tell you is how God might use you that day for someone else. If we go with self-focused eyes, we will miss Him using us to help others. Even if you are shy and introverted, God can show you how to pray for someone! “Nobody talked to me” “That church is cold”….hmmm, did you talk to someone? Jesus shed His blood for everyone in your church, the same price He paid for you. It may take an effort to love them, but it may take an effort to love you too!

For husbands, this means love your wives, just as Christ loved the church. He gave up his life for her to make her holy and clean, washed by the cleansing of God’s word. He did this to present her to himself as a glorious church without spot or wrinkle or any blemish. Instead, she will be holy and without spot. Ephesians 5:25-27. NLT I think we often forget how much God loves His church. We often forget the price He paid for her. We also forget how He is working to make her glorious. We are like spoiled and immature children. We quickly complain and criticize if we don’t get our needs met through her as we think we should. It is time to grow up.

Remember what He said to Peter? And I tell you, you are Peter, and on this rock, I will build my church and the gates of hell will not prevail against it. Matthew 16: 18. ESV. God will perfect His church. It will keep standing. My friend in India shared with me that a house church was attacked and the pastor put in jail. They are standing strong in the face of adversity and persecution. Let’s not worry about minor issues. Instead, let’s take the time to pray for our brothers and sisters who are being persecuted. I am so grateful we have the freedom to worship here in this country. Don’t waste it. There may come a time when we can’t gather. My friends in India are meeting secretly, but they are meeting. They strengthen one another by being together. Let’s do the same.

Father, help us honor and strengthen your church. Not just our local one, but the universal one. We choose to stand with those who may think differently than we do on a topic, but still name you as Lord. Forgive us for disrespecting your Bride, Teach us to love your church, as you do.  in Jesus’ Name, amen. 

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Faith and Disarmament

He disarmed the rulers and authorities and put them to open shame, by triumphing over them. Colossians 2:15. NLT.

In his Easter message, one scripture our pastor used was this one. It was an amazing message dealing with time, the cross and the keys of authority we have been given. As he read, in this way, he disarmed the spiritual rulers and authorities. He shamed them publicly by his victory over them on the cross. I became focused on the word, “disarmed”. I thought about police officers disarming the bad guys! I kept thinking about how they do a complete search, making sure there were no hidden weapons. They are “stripped” of everything that could be used against them. This is what Jesus did on the cross! He stripped our enemy of all their weapons!

This was the victory Jesus achieved on the cross. He disarmed the spiritual rulers and authorities. I thought, do I really believe it? That Jesus truly disarmed those spiritual authorities that try to lie and steal my victory? How about you? How would our lives be different if we really understood that our enemy has been stripped of his weapons? I am convinced we often live so far beneath His purpose and plan for our lives. We do not really grasp what He accomplished on the cross for us. This was part of the reason Paul wrote this letter. You can hear the longing in Paul’s writing in Colossians 2:1-2. I want you to know how much I have agonized for you and for the church of Laodicea, and for many other believers who I have never met personally. I want them to be encouraged and knit together by strong ties of love. I want them to have complete confidence that they understand God’s mysterious plan, which is Christ himself.

I love verse 14: He canceled the record of the charges against us and took it away by nailing it to the cross. This is not theory, it is reality. Our past sins are under the blood.We don’t have to live in regret for our past failings. We don’t have to listen to Satan’s lies. When the scripture uses the term “disarmed” it comes from the Greek word that means “stripped”. Do you think you can picture it? Those spiritual authorities standing before the King, and Him taking every weapon from them? They are hanging their heads in shame because there is nothing they can do. He’s done it!

So why don’t we live like this is our reality? Because we must enforce what Jesus has already done. It is our responsibility to resist him and watch him flee from us. This is a reminder. Most of you know this, but sometimes we forget. We just do until we make it a priority to really process it into our soul. I admit, he does sneak up on me with his lies and deception. I am so grateful we have the Holy Spirit to remind us what Jesus did on the cross for us. This is an area where we must allow our mind to be renewed, and most likely renewed again! We need to be in His Word daily to maintain the victory in our own lives.

Let your roots grow down into him, and let your lives be built on him. Then your faith will grow strong in the truth you were taught, and you will overflow with thankfulness. Colossians 2:7. Chapter 2 of Colossians is an amazing reminder of what He did on the cross. Paul’s concern for the believers at Colossae and the surrounding region is so heartfelt. If you struggle with what He finished on the cross for you, take time to meditate on this chapter. It will refresh and encourage you.

Father, thank you. Thank you for allowing Jesus to disarm our enemies. Teach how to put that reality into practice. Every where we have been hoodwinked or lied to, show us. Bring into open areas where we are living beneath what you have done for us. In Jesus’ Name, amen.

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Faith and Walking through Shadows

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. Psalm 23:4 NLT.

In 1981, while my husband was on a ministry trip to Texas, the Holy Spirit asked him a question. “Darryl, do you have a desire for a son?” As he searched his heart, he told the Lord, “you know, I do”. He called me from Texas and shared that conversation with me. We had already discussed having more children, and he told me he was content with our two beautiful daughters. Rosanna was going to be seven, Elizabeth five. I had already prayed to be content with these two. We were done with diapers, cribs and sleepless nights, but I did some more praying (of course I said, yes!)

This pregnancy was hard. I had extreme morning sickness (all day long!). Then I started spotting blood. My doctor advised bed rest, so that’s what I did. It wasn’t easy with two active girls. This bed rest gave me lots of time to think and pray. I wrestled with God’s question: if this was the promised son, then why was it so hard? Suppose I miscarried? How do I reconcile the two? I processed my trust in God’s Word. I navigated the pregnancy hormones and emotions. I tried to understand what my body was apparently doing. I struggled. One day, I read this verse. “Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil”. Such peace came over me. If, for some reason, I lost this pregnancy, there would be no evil in it. If I carried the baby to full term, there would also be no evil in it, even if it was a girl. For God is the author of life. The very next day, the bleeding stopped!

That scripture goes on to say, I will for no evil, for thou are with me. He is with us through every shadow of doubt and fear. If you are struggling with belief in His goodness through your situation, take heart. His rod and His staff are protecting you if you let Him. The rod is symbolic of God’s protection and discipline. The staff is used for guidance and support. Turn to Him and let Him guide you to safe places in your thoughts and emotions.

Andrew Lloyd Rodman was born September 9, 1982, very healthy and has been such a blessing to our family. The peace that came when I submitted to trusting God’s Word in this matter is hard to describe. This week, the doctors placed my sister Carol in hospice care. It was not unexpected, but still difficult to hear. Hospice care happens when the doctors feel a person has less than six months to live. Carol has been fighting Parkinson’s for several years.

Carol has been the glue that has kept our unusual family together. She was eleven when we were born. Our sister Laura was 4. Because of our mother’s mental condition, Carol and Laura were placed in foster care, and we were placed for adoption. Eventually, Carol and Laura were adopted into separate families as well. Through God’s amazing answer to prayer, we were reunited at 15. Carol was the big sister we didn’t know we needed! Carol is number four of eight children. We were numbers 6, 7 and 8! This valley is not easy for any of us.

The good news is Carol loves the Lord, and we know she will be with Him. My heart goes out to her two dear daughters who have taken such good care of her. It is difficult to navigate the hard decisions that come with end-of-life care. I know from personal experience, there will be a big hole in their hearts and lives when she goes. There is no evil in her passing. Parkinson’s diagnosis is not an easy one, and like all sicknesses and diseases, the result of the Fall.

Our hope lies in the resurrection, doesn’t it? This life has its difficult moments, for sure. The passing of loved ones is one of the hardest parts. But we take comfort in the words of 1 Thessalonians 4:13-14: But we do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, about those who are asleep, that you may not grieve as others do who have no hope. For we believe that Jesus died and rose again. Through Jesus, God will also bring with him those who have fallen asleep.

My friends, love well those you care about. Allow the Holy Spirit to help you navigate the difficult conversations. Accept the reality that none of us leave this world alive. Our real life will start when we see Him…aren’t you glad we have a Savior?

Father, I ask you to help us understand in a deeper manner how to navigate every valley that looks like death, and every valley that does lead to a death. Whether it is the death of dreams, or the death of a loved one. We choose to trust you, In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

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Faith and Courage

The Lord God is my strength [my source of courage, my invincible army]; He has made my feet [steady and sure] like hinds feet. And makes me walk [forward with spiritual confidence] on my high places [of challenge and responsibility]. Habakkuk 3:19 Amp.

I love this verse in the Amplified version. Do you ever personalize scripture with your name in it? The Lord God is Martha’s strength[Martha’s source of courage, Martha’s invincible army]; He has made Martha’s feet [steady and sure] like hinds feet. Put your own name in, and no matter how weak or strong you feel, it gives you extra courage! When we forget He is our strength, we end up relying on our own strength. That strength is very weak and wimpy compared to His. This is just a simple reminder that you can do whatever He has called you to do. Especially if you need courage to do it!

This week, my two sisters and my niece drove over the mountains to visit our older sister. It will most likely be the last time we will see her. She is in late stage Parkinson’s disease. This was a trip we tried to plan before, but either the weather or our schedule prevented us. Carol had trouble processing who we were, which was understandably difficult. It was such a blessing to be with her daughter, Patty, whom we haven’t seen in years. Sharing memories with her was important. My niece drove us, and she shared wonderful memories that she had with Carol as well. But it took courage to look at our sister and see how her body is failing. I kept thinking, ten years ago she was active and well, how will I be in ten years? Only God knows. It takes courage to grow older.

It is my job to be as wise as I can with my body, soul, and mind. The courage I need today is not the same courage I needed in my twenty’s or thirty’s. As I read this scripture in my twenty’s, I could only think about emotional or spiritual hind’s feet. Now, I need to make sure I can walk steadily! He has made my feet [steady and sure] like hinds feet. I have watched deer leaping from crag to crag. They seem to do it effortlessly. They even do it with joy! My friend’s husband is now a patient in a rehabilitation facility. He fell two months ago and apparently hit his head. They are trying to help him overcome an un-diagnosed brain bleed. We are praying for recovery of strength and memory issues, but at 88 they aren’t sure. It takes courage to walk through their season of life, trusting God has everything in hand. She needs our prayer and support to help her courageously face their uncertain future. I told her today, sometimes faith can seem wobbly, but that is OK. She is doing well with Jesus. It also takes courage to walk with others through their dark valleys, but we can do it.

I love the last section, where Habakkuk declares: he makes me walk [forward with spiritual confidence] on my high places [of challenge and responsibility]. It is God’s intention that His children walk forward in life, but that they do so with spiritual confidence. The only way we can gain this spiritual confidence is to do it with Him. My friends, I know as you face your own challenges and responsibilities, fear may try to raise its ugly head. But I want to remind you that you can do it with His wisdom, strength and courage. You are not alone, aren’t you glad?

The high places of life can be scary. They can be areas where life is trying to elevate itself above our God. In the Old Testament, people worshiped idols and engaged in demonic practices at the high places. We do not have to worry about them. In fact, God has given us the ability to ‘ride upon the high places of the earth’ (Isaiah 58:14). He has given us a position of advantage and blessing, and favor.

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We can walk in confidence and courage as we strengthen ourselves in Him. Do not try to do life alone my friends. It will be less than He intends. He has good things for us to discover as we walk with Him, in the valley or on the mountains. Our best life is with Him.

Father, please help us walk with you with confidence and courage. Thank you for steadying every wobbly place we find ourselves. You are such a gracious God, and we settle for so much less than you have for us, so often. Please help us, Father. In Jesus’ Name, amen.

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Faith and Burden Bearing

Share each other’s burdens, and in this way obey the law of Christ. Galatians 6:2. NLT.

When you read this scripture, how does it make you feel? Scared? Happy to help other’s ? Glad there should be others to help you? Did you read the last part..and in this way to obey the law of Christ. There is something a little more serious and commanding when I hear the word law! How about to you? Laws are usually not considered optional for most people!

So it seems if we want to obey the law of Christ, we need to share, carry or bear each others burdens. So the question is, how do we do that? Let’s put it in context with the verse above it. Dear brothers and sisters, if another believer is overcome by some sin, you who are godly should gently and humbly help that person back on the right path. And be careful not to fall into the same temptation yourself. Galatians 6:1. Paul admits here, that some believers will struggle with sin. It is our responsibility to help them overcome this sin. This is the first way we can help bear someone else’s burden. But it comes with some stipulations.

One, we must do it gently and humbly. I take this to mean no added judgment or shame. Our goal is to restore them to full fellowship. If we emotionally find ourselves appalled at the persons sin, we need to take some time and go back to the cross ourselves. It is so easy to let judgment and condemnation sneak in, which defeats the purpose. Only when we remember our own need for a Savior can we truly help with the ministry of reconciliation. Jesus warned the Pharisees about not added more weight to them. “For they bind heavy burdens and grievous to be borne, and lay them on men’s shoulders; but they themselves will not move them with one of their fingers” (Matt. 23:4.

If you have been praying for loved ones and co-workers, you must take the time to examine your own heart. Our pastor preached about our church being a welcoming church for all. It is with the understanding that transformation is God’s desire. I began to examine my own heart, thinking about what types of people would I find difficult to really receive. I admit, some showed up. I was humbled and convicted as His Spirit showed me those who He loves, but I struggle with. The good news is I can see how I have grown in opening my heart to more than before!

As I listened to this message, I also prayed for clearer steps our church can have for discipleship. If we believe God’s salvation message is for everyone, and transformation is also for everyone, then we must understand it is a process. The next question that came was , am I willing to be part of that transformation? The good news is this law of Christ is the law of love. This love applies to both myself and others. It’s not about me willing myself to get rid of judgment. It is up to me to let His love keep transforming me and you.

Faith, which works by love, is released. God’s Spirit begins to move with loving conviction and restoration takes place. We must see our brother and sister as valuable to the Kingdom. We must understand that Satan seeks to destroy them through their sin. We have been given the joy to help them overcome! But that can’t happen if we don’t have the faith to believe in God’s transforming power. Do you believe He can change the people you pray for? Or is it just something you do out of obligation?

The Word promises us that Jesus came to seek and to save all that was lost. When this truth radiates in our spirit, we will become a tool He can truly use. Spending time with Him, getting to know His love for yourself, will help us learn to love others, and this truly does fulfill the law of Christ–the law of love.

Father, thank you for helping us grow in this area. We desperately need your help to love others in a way that surpasses their faults. Even if they hurt us, we should assist in restoring them gently and humbly. Deal with our pride, and arrogance in every area, so we don’t fall into judgment and criticism. In Jesus’ Name, amen.

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