This past week has been difficult in many ways. Due to stress and my own emotional lack of control I over-reacted during a meeting and admittedly my frustration led to me letting my feelings get the better of me. I communicated my feelings to the leaders with some distinct facial and body language exhibited during a leadership meeting. I have since offered my apologies the best I can for any communicated dis-respect of them. I can’t really excuse my behavior, for it was wrong, even though there were a pile up of situations that l could point to, I didn’t let the peace of God and my trust in Him lead me. That was wrong. When I apologized to one person he wasn’t even aware of my actions! But God knew, didn’t He? The others have all accepted my apology.
So now what? As I repented to the Lord and asked forgiveness of those involved I must choose to accept His forgiveness and trust that the others are as gracious as He is. His forgiveness is instantaneous, while others must process their response. I have really never been in this position quite before. I have been frustrated but usually vented it in the privacy of my own prayer closet, with the Lord…praying for His solution. I know I am learning to lessons on how/when to communicate my feelings/thoughts etc. In fact, I was a bit surprised by my actions!
Faith Encounters 